It is so much easier to hide among the pack instead of being the lead dog. When you are working toward that top spot, you are never satisfied. You are open to any changes that might improve your organization. You can evaluate yourself against the performance of whoever is running ahead of you.
When you finally reach number one, you’re all alone. There’s nobody left to chase. So there’s a temptation not to run quite as fast as before. You forget that the time to shift into overdrive is when you are the hunted not the hunter. You have to show some extra foot so the competition doesn’t gain on you.
Humblebrag
So yesterday I walked into a bar near campus and saw a friend of mine who now lives in Chicago that was in town for business. He says “Just the person I wanted to see.” and I, quite obviously, replied with a quizzical expression that said “huh? me?” and he says “You’re the biggest Leafs fan I know, and I have Blackhawks season tickets. They’re in town on the 29th of February and I want you to come. You interested?”
Of course I’m interested, in fact—it’s probably the best news I had gotten all week. The only problem is that I have an insanely hectic travel schedule during February and on the 29th I’m flying out to spend 8 days in Phoenix w/ my college roomate where we’re going to see the Coyotes and Suns play and then hit up a bunch of spring training baseball games.
A part of me died when I told him I couldn’t make it. But a few hours later I realized “When I have to turn down free NHL tickets because I’m going to be spending 8 days with close friends doing a ton of fun stuff…that’s a seriously good place to be in.”
But you can guarantee I’ll be watching Leafs/Hawks on the 29th…I hope it’s not a good game.
It is not so incomprehensible as you pretend, sweet pea. Love is the feeling we have for those we care deeply about and hold in high regard. It can be light as the hug we give a friend or heavy as the sacrifices we make for our children. It can be romantic, platonic, familial, fleeting, everlasting, conditional, unconditional, imbued with sorrow, stoked by sex, sullied by abuse, amplified by kindness, twisted by betrayal, deepened by time, darkened by difficulty, leavened by generosity, nourished by humor and “loaded with promises and commitments” that we may or may not want or keep.
The best thing you can possibly do with your life is to tackle the motherfucking shit out of it.



